i love you

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-10-04T21:50:00

2008-10-05T01:40:35Z

AND I HATE KEITH. ROXANNE IS THE BEST

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-10-04T21:48:00

2008-10-05T01:40:12Z

I really love horses. I really just need to throw this out there. All of this time, I have just been jealous of them. Their beauty, their powerful muscles. I want it, so I mock it. Silly, huh? Just thought you should know.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-06-19T20:50:00

2008-06-20T00:46:51Z

Dear friends,

Today I finished my last class in college. I have officially finished my time at FAU, and granted... I plan on going to graduate school eventually, but for real... TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! AHHH!

Hell yeah.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-04-22T17:20:00

2008-04-22T21:24:20Z

Alyx, Kelly and I went to Boston this past weekend for the last Piebald shows EVERRRRRRRR. It was one of the greatest experiences of my life. Super duper sad that Piebald is no longer a band and we'll never get to see them tour again, but they certainly went out with a bang. Those two nights were the best concerts i've ever been to ever, and I can't stop raving about it.

Pictures are posted at: http://gallery.mac.com/dbeal4

RIP Piebald 1993-2008

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-04-13T16:35:00

2008-04-13T20:31:29Z

http://www.myspace.com/dallasgreen Listen to "Girl"

Alyx gave me this cd today and I can't stop listening.

In any case.. I'm packing to move Tuesday and I'm a little freaked out.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-03-28T16:38:00

2008-03-28T20:34:56Z

I'll just listen to Ryan Adams with a smile on my face :)

March is supposed to be better I thought.

2008-03-06T08:11:44Z

I really just miss having best friends. I miss having someone to talk to and I miss having someone around to listen.

and now I'm just mad at myself for being such a downer.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-03-05T03:22:00

2008-03-05T08:26:29Z

So i've had a cold the past two days. I was SOOOO sneezy today!

The difference between being lazy and being sick, is that sleeping all day is actually refreshing when your body is in need of it. I'm excited to start feeling better... I don't want this spring break to feel like a waste.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-02-26T01:44:00

2008-02-26T06:58:35Z

I miss having him as a friend.. so much. and I've been thinking about it. and him. so much more recently. It scares me to not know how I feel about it. or be able to talk to him about it.

More importantly... since Amanda suggested it last week.. I really want this camera:

Link: http://www.lomography.com/diana/about

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-02-20T16:38:00

2008-02-20T21:49:56Z

So, I wish that I could download all my thoughts directly into my livejournal. When I'm driving back and forth to West Palm for work I'm always thinking grand thoughts to myself, and I really wish that I posted more.

The past couple weeks my usual funk has dropped me in a pretty deep rut. I've been tired, cranky and generally unmotivated. I've truly been accomplishing nothing, and I continue to make time for myself to do nothing. I've found a lot of interesting things to occupy my time, like reading magazines, listening to Hannah Montana, watching Disney movies and loafing around online. Whenever I have a free moment, I'll usually take a nap.

There is so much more that I want to get from life than what I'm allowing myself right now. I'm hiding from my responsibilities, and acting like a 10 year old. Surprisingly though I'm not too unhappy. Sure I've had my days, particularly those where I'm counting failed relationships on two hands and wondering where all my best friends have gone, but there is a slight glimmer of joy to be found here.

The beach is still as beautiful as ever, and so are the sunrises, and the sun in general. I can't even describe to you how much I love Florida. It only took me 18 years to get it, but this place is unforgettable. That of course doesn't mean that I'm still not dead set on getting the heck out of here.. I think its just going to make it harder for me to find a place that can compare.

I'm not too worried, I know I'll get myself out of this. I'll come to my senses and grow up, get my work done and get on with my life. I guess I just need a little break.. some time to enjoy being 20 years old. I have a plan, for the next few years at least, so we'll see where that takes me. I plan on graduating this summer, hopefully getting an internship, or a job also. Once fall starts and everyone goes back to school, I'll be hanging around Boca, working, saving some money. Come December who knows. Alyx and I talked about the potential of moving away, just to get out, work and just enjoy being away from "home". Graduate school and a career will follow. It scares me a lot to make plans. Who knows whats going to come my way? Its just nice to have an idea of where I might end up.

What are your plans for the next few years? I'm interested to find out how everyone else feels about this whole growing up and joining the real world thing haha

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-02-06T15:59:00

2008-02-06T20:58:34Z

I love my best friend a lot because she sends me things like this...

A message in a citrus cooler bottle haha

ich_liebe_dich @ 2008-01-31T01:04:00

2008-01-31T06:02:42Z

Why am I in such a hurry to grow up?

It's just putting me in a constant state of disappointment.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-12-14T20:41:00

2007-12-15T01:43:01Z

I find hope in what eyes don't see. and when I try to look for it with my two eyes, I'm never going to find it.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-12-05T23:47:00

2007-12-06T04:57:58Z

Can I just live in a sunset and listen to Minus the Bear all the time?

and.. my funk has made me overly sentimental recently.

in sadder news.. I can't watch the Jungle Book anymore. That crutch has been swept out from under me. ugh

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-12-05T01:43:00

2007-12-05T06:46:40Z

I'm in a funk.

I'm feeling restless and helpless and frustrated. All I want to do is lay in my bed and cuddle with some large stuffed animal, probably a polar bear to be honest. I don't want any responsibilities and I just want to feel comforted.

The lame part is I don't even want to look at things anymore because I know that they're going to bring me joy. I don't want to go outside, I don't want it to be cold. I don't want the sun to rise or set and I don't want the beach or flowers to exist. I just don't want it. I want to be upset but at the same time, all I want is for things to be normal and for me to be happy.

I'm being really immature and irrational. Boo.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-09-08T23:10:00

2007-09-09T03:10:02Z

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-09-07T19:44:00

2007-09-07T23:46:47Z

Its days like this that remind me why I'm still here in Florida. There is so much beauty here that I never took the time to discover.

Today we played on the beach like kids, and despite a couple set backs, I had one of the most beautiful days of my life. The sun and the sand and the water felt so amazing. I couldn't imagine being anywhere else right now.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-07-25T20:01:00

2007-07-26T00:02:18Z

Many many new pictures at: web.mac.com/dbeal4

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-07-23T22:34:00

2007-07-24T02:35:47Z

My best friend is leaving me :( Boo!

...but I couldn't be more excited for her. Good job, I knew you could do it! :)

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-07-08T18:16:00

2007-07-08T22:15:04Z

The 40th anniversary DVD collection of The Jungle Book is coming in October! junglebookdvd.com

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-06-28T20:43:00

2007-06-29T01:01:20Z

New Kelly Clarkson cd? So bitchin.

I miss my dorm room :(

Recently I've been really bitter and mad about school, and about everyone getting to be on vacation but me. I'm so sick of school, and waking up early. I'm just not excited about heading straight into fall. Its going to be a really demanding year and I'm scared I won't be ready. I feel guilty about being bitter though, because I'm really ENJOYING my time in class, and enjoying learning. and surprisingly, I feel like i've had a decent summer despite it all. Things have been different, and I'm suddenly a lot cooler with spending lots of time alone. I finally have time to read! Its just weird not to leave Boca all summer. I'm going nuts here! I just want to lay on the beach all day.

I've spent a lot of time researching grad schools and I'm no closer to chosing one. I can't seem to decide if I'm brave enough to endure northern weather. I'll continue to look at schools in southern California :)

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-06-19T00:13:00

2007-06-19T04:20:46Z

Wow. and for a second there I thought I had lost faith. My bible and I have been distant recently, since summer started actually. All night I've had my head wrapped around boys and relationships and emotions, finally I couldn't concentrate on Italian anymore. I promised myself that I was going to reach over to my bible, and open it up to anywhere, see what God had to offer me. and of course he always finds the right words.

Song of Songs 2:7
Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you
by the gazelles and by the does of
the field:
Do not arouse or awaken love
until it so desires.

and with that, I must perservere, and continue to be patient. :)

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-05-28T12:39:00

2007-05-28T16:48:19Z

Today marks the beginning of a new era in my life. Ok, not REALLY... but the wretchedly ugly ring that my parents bought me for Christmas when I was 10, that hasn't left my finger since that day, has finally fallen off my hand. Thats 9 years of life. I was kind of upset about it... my finger is lonely. And as much as I complain about it.. I'm having it reset tomorrow, and resized, so that its not trapped on my finger for another decade haha

I'm feeling lonely and sad this afternoon. Home alone. I need to do homework.

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-04-25T02:42:00

2007-04-25T06:51:41Z

I spent a lot of tonight studying for a biology exam, and as I wrote out the definition of this word I smiled

Mutualism: a symbiotic relationship in which both partners benefit.

and that is all I want from love :)

ps- I hate when my phone is on my desk and it vibrates. It always sounds so angry :(

ich_liebe_dich @ 2007-04-22T23:21:00

2007-04-23T03:33:01Z

Shuffling through his music it landed on Ode to Joy and now I can't stop smiling. Things are awesome. I'm stressed about school but I still couldn't be happier.
Awkward times still ahead? I just hope I get better at decision making... now THAT would be a plus.